FULLNESS

This past weekend I attened a confernce called "Fullness". It was a weekend of fasting and focusing on the Lord. I have never gone because the confernce has always been to far for me to go. So i was able to.

Well before I decieded to go to Fullness I was praying a lot because that week I was really sick and was not sure if I wanted to go but I prayed about it and God told me that he wanted me to go. So I was like 0kay Lord what ever you want so I went and I have to tell you that I made the right descion, because I was able to reconext with the Lord. I had been walking away form the Lord for awhile and I needed to find him again and I did. The Lord revealed himself to me in a way that I have never exceperinces before. I felt like crying out to the Lord because I really needed him and then there he was. I was just not looking for him in the right place. So now I am going to talk about Fullness and what the Lord spoke to me about.

Okay on Saturday we had a time of solutiude with is spending time listening to Lord and hearing what he has to say. So I spent about a hour and a half listening to the LOrd. WE were to choose a place to go and reflect on the Lord so I chosse to go to the garden and it was so beautiful beacuse it was so quite and I really hard the Lord spaeking to me for what felt like the first time. I just wanted to cry out to the Lord and I did a little bit. We were aslo told to write down thing that we want to forget and things we wanted to remember. My list of the things I wanted to forget was not that long but my list of the things I wanted to remember was so long because the Lord keep speaking to me. As I was lieing by the garden the Lord gave me a picture. The picture was of a garden. I was walking along and I came to this Garden and I wanted to enter but it was locked and I couldnt find the key then I saw a man walking by and asked him how do I get into the Garden and he said that I needed a key. So then I asked him were is the key and he said that I have the key and that I was not allowed to have it, so I asked him why and he said because I have not giving myself completely over to God. I have not asecpted the Fullness of the Lord. The man said that, that was the only wya that I was going to be able to enter the Garden. At that moment I didnt know what to do so then I prayed and asked the Lord to come and fill me with the Fullness of him, and then I asked in what area do I need the fullness and he said The Fullness of healing. Then I asked him to heal me fully because I have been holding on to something that the Lord has been wanting to take away from. me. The more I reflected on the Lord in front of the Garden the more the Lord spoke to me. Then the Lord gave me a scripture and the scripture is the one about The Locked Garden in Song of Solomon.
"A garden locked is my sister, my bride, A rock garden locked, a spring sealed up.
Your shoots are an orchard of pomegranates with choice fruits, henna with nard plants,
Nard and saffron, calamus and cinnamon, with all the trees of frankincense, myrr and aloes, along with all the finest spices. You are a garden spring, Awell of fresh water, and
streams flowing from Lebanon." "Awake, O north wind, and come, wind of the south;
Make my garden breathe out fragrance, lets its spices be wafted aboard. May my
beloved come into his garden and eat its choice fruits!"
SONG OF SOLOMON 4:12-16

Another way that the Lord put that vision was it is like trying to enter into the heart of the Lord but the only way to do that is to accept him fully. To live out his word, to live for him and him. Every since then I have been reading my Bible more and God is revealing so much to me. I have almost gone through the whole New Testament.

Fullness was a good weekend. The fasting part was hard becasue there temptations there for me but I prayed and asked the Lord to help me to foucs on him. So I did and I became hunger for his word.

Lord I pray that the fullness fo you would be enough for me and that I would accept your healing for me. Also that I would live by your word. Amen

Worship

I took this from Karyn Bakers blog because it really spoke to me. It is very encouraging and powerful. Many things I never though worship was
When You Experience True WorshipWorship is when you walk away and all you can think about is Him and your relationship with Him. You are not thinking about the band or the music or whether or not they did your favorite song. You are simply lost in your thoughts of Him; you are remembering what the Holy Spirit told you and taught you; you are relishing in the satisfaction of your soul because your needs have been heard and met. You have been given love and have received love; moreover, your affection has not been rejected and you are at peace. You are stirred to continue to be obedient to all He has commanded, not out of duty or obligation but because you are in love with your Creator Who loves you like no one can.
True worship results in change of your heart, of your actions, of your mind. Otherwise, we have simply sung a bunch of songs over and over like choir practice. So, either I am a singer and I go away a bit hoarse or I am a worshiper and go away different.Longing for Genuine WorshipIt is a place where I can taste God's original intention for my life to "walk in the garden in the cool of the day" with Him (Genesis 3:8), to commune with Him. In these moments He points out the lies of the world that I am believing more than His timeless promises. In these moments He is King and I am servant; His name is supreme and my name is hidden in His; He is Father and I am child. Music is not the avenue to this; the songs themselves are nothing more than servants, given by God, to remind us that it's all about Him and for Him. Genuine worship is not lifting my hands and wondering if someone is watching. It is not holding hands and swaying with my best friends. It is not even the sound of our voices.
Worship is all about the posture of the heart.Public and Private Worship TimesWhen I first began traveling and leading worship, a mentor/friend asked me a question that has stayed with me for the last eight years. He asked, "Jami, how is your private worship?"I remember thinking, "Oops, wait a minute, what does he mean, exactly?" He graciously continued, noting my uneasiness and said, "You will never take a congregation publicly where you have not gone privately."What a great, humbling teaching moment for me. Corporate worship is intended to be a time for the Body to come together and encourage one another. The early church understood this union as a must to pray for one another to remain strong against false teachings and persecution. Our public worship meetings as a Body of Christ should be an overflow of our private encounters with God. Can you imagine how great our Sunday worship times would be if we were worshipping privately all week long? We would explode when we came together. Instead, sadly, often times we are begging people to sing along. Authentic public worship is an overflow of our private time with God. How can we sing about His love replacing loneliness or His truth replacing lies if we have never experienced it personally and privately? How can we expect to worship corporately if we do not treasure Him and His words privately?
written by worshipper Jami Smith

A Little Break

To all my friends I know that I haven't blog in awhile and just wanted to let you all know that I will be taking a break from blogging for awhile . Not that I don't have anything to tell you all, I am just feeling like I need to take a break.
Blessing to you all

What Is God Will

This has been something I have been searching for, for awhile because I didn't know what God had planned for me in trumse of Ministry. Then I spent so time in pray and asked God what he want me to do and if the Ministries I was involved in was what he wanted me to do. I am not sure if I got the right answer but I have decieded to talk some time off the worship team to explore other Minisrtries that New West is offering to people. I was talking to my Youth Pastor Cory about my future and what I was planning on doing in the fall. I told him I was planning on going to Pacific Life Bible College to talk a Youth and Pastrol Program there because I feel like I am meant to be working with Youth and Children so I was talking to him about that and telling him that I think that is were God is wanting me to go. So Cory and I got to talking and he was telling me about who they were looking for someone to be The Sunday School Coordintor and I told Cory that I wouod pray about it and see what God wants me to do0. So I went home on Firday and prayed abput and then I come back on Sunday and told Cory I was intertesed in doing that. This is a way for me to grow in my gifts and to do what God wants me to do. This is all for God. I am doing this voluteerly for God and also for Cory because he doesn't have enough time to do it with all that he does already. I am very excited about this oppournity becauseI get the chance to be involved in the children's lives at the Church. I am the one who makes the schulde and fills in for people that can't make there day. This Sunday I get to do Sunday School so it is going to be good.

Doing God will is what I want to do because I don't want to doing anything that God doesn't want me to do. I want to do service for him and worship him from my heart and make it real not something were I am doing it for the attention because then were does all the glory go. It is all for Jesus and I will give him my all. He is worthy of all my praise and I want to praise him with all my heart and soul. The Lord has been good to me and I want to serve him for all that he has done for me. Like sending his Son to die on the cross for me sins. I am forgive because he forgives me evenm when I still sin he forgives because he love s us all so much. God will is great. he will never make you do something you are not ready to do unless he thinks you are ready to do it then go for it because God will be with you all the way. He is walking by your side and he will never let you go.

That is so encouraging because I don't want God to ever let me go. I want to live for him everyday. I want to speak his word to others and not be afraid because God will protect me.

Change My Heart O God

This last couple of weeks I have been looking at my life and not really liking what I have been seening. There have been things that I done or seen that I don't like what has been going on. I have been finding it hard spending time with the Lord, like beening in the Word, worshipping him, serving him with my heart. All this stuff has been taking away from my relationship with the Lord and I want it back. I have been trying really hard to spend with the Lord but then other things get in the way and then I forget about my time with the Lord. I know that spending time with the Lord is important because it helps our relationship to grow and it builds my faith up. I want God to change my heart and make it pure again to cleasn me from my sins. Lord come and change my heart and make it the way you want it to be,take control of my heart.

On New years eve there was a worship service at New West church and it was every powerful for me even though I was had to do powerpoint and keep an eye on the pray concer. I was able to worship God in a way I have never been able to. That night God was speaking to me about my life and I was looking at heart and how I was feeling. God keep telling me that everything is going to okay I just need to trust in him and he will take care of me. God is all powerful and amazing. God is a changeless God who can change anyone or an situation he chooses. The Lord is faithful in all he does. In first Samuel 10:6 it says The Spirit of the Lord will come upon you in power, and you will prophesy with them; and you will be changed into a different person. I want to be changed into a different person, someone who God is proud of. The Lord and forgiving. So back to New Years Eve, Pastor Karyn had spoke about looking in our hearst and asking God what he has for us and then recieve what he has for you. I did look into my heart and what I saw was not good because I have been pushing God away for awhile. So the relationship I have with the Lord in not as strong I wish it could be.

My pray is that God will can into our lives and change our heart, make it pure and forgive us of our sins.

Blessing
April

Spiritual Tiredness

I have been spiritually tired for awhile and I don't want to say that it is a bad thing because I love the Lord with all my heart and I don't want to stop serving him. I have been doing so much for the Lord service whis. I have been working Kettles everynight, being at the daycare long hours that is not a bad thing at all.I love my job and the children are so great but with all this going on I have not been able to spend time with the Lord one on one. When I don't get to spend time with the lord it makes me very upset because the Lord is the one who gives me strength to get through the days. I have found that I am not only spiritual tired but also phyically tired. I have been sick for awhile and the doctors sdon't know what is going on.i keep going to the doctors and they keep tell me that they don't know what is going on. So being tried has stoped me from spending time with the Lord and I feel so broken inside because I have not been spending time with the Lord.
This past Sunday was my day off I had the chance to spend time in pray with the Lord asking him to forgive me for not taking time to be with him. I also had the chance to ask God to heal me and help me to rest. For awhile I have been talking to the Lord about some stuff in my life and what he wants that to look like. So in the New Year I am taking time off to spend with the Lord and to spend time in the word focusing on what the Lord wants to tell me and show me about my life. I am going to be taking time off of things that I know I need to slow down in and some of that has to do with service I am not taking it complately off just in some areas untill I feel better and untill God tells me it is time to come back to that stuff. I am doing this all for the lord because I want to spend time with him alone and that has been hard to do these last few months.With having that time off I am going to be able to focus on school and spend time with families and reading the word.
I am very excited to have some time off to spend with the Lord and to take care of my self.

Community

I can across a blog that Karyn Baker wrote about Community and it got me thinking. What is community? What does it look like? What is the definition of community? God has been putting this on my mind ever since I read Karyn's blog. This blog was very interetsing to me. Are we a community? I have been praying about this community stuff and what God wants to say about it. Well this is what God has told me about community. Community has many definitions. Community can look like different things but what God is trying to tell me I think is that community is about fellowship. Getting to know the people in your church. Spending time praying for others. Being in the word and encouraging others to be in the word to. Community is being a family that loves each other. Community is about showing God to others. As you can see community has many definitions to it. God is trying to show me what it look likes to be in community. This is a good topic to look into and ask God what it looks like. If you look at
Genesis 48:4 it says.
and He said to me, Behold, I will make you fruitful and numerous
and I will make you a company of peoples, and will give this land
to your descendants after you for an everlasting possession.
God wants to make us all a community. All the belivere together and that is so great. I want to be in community with God. Can you image having 100 percent of God in your life. What would that be like. Having God be everything you do. Your life would be so much happier and God would be everything you do.

I want God to be in every part of my life because I need him so much. To be my strength when I am weak. To be the words that come out of my mouth. To be my breath of ife. God wants to everything to us. He wants to be in community with us. What a beauitful picture that would be.

Well God is great. He has showen me so much that I never thought I would see.

Blessing to you all